August 17, 2008
For the first night in a really long time, I felt God standing right beside me. I am so happy at where I am at with my life and who my friends are and what my future bestows. I love God. I love Cinema Church. I love everything. Sure, my life isn’t picture perfect, but really… who’s is? I’ve got things to work on but things are definitely moving forward.
Without You I am nothing, You are everything.
August 6, 2008
So as most of you know, I got my tattoo a few days ago! I love it so much, but I had to hide it for a while because I was scared to be honest with my family. After Sunday morning, and the constant stress with trying to be secretive over something so silly, I knew what I had to do. I told my mom and she didn’t kill me. I don’t know how, but she was really calm about it. She was happy I was being honest, and I feel much better about it now. It was a big step into bringing healing into the relationship with my parents.
Another blessed story, a nice older lady I work with is struggling with cancer and her sister just got diagnosed as well. The other night we were working alone and telling me about her faith and church life and she got really scared about her illness and just started crying and I just held her. I told her that God is the one true healer and that He will take care of everything she needs. She was calmed by this. Then today at work, she came in very happy. I asked her what was up, and she told me that she doesn’t need to get open heart surgery, miraculously, her cancer moved out of the way of her heart which was giving her pain and was worsening… now it’s getting better!! Way better than ever expected.
God is amazing!
August 4, 2008
READ: Acts 4
MY KEY VERSE: 31 After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly.
MY REFLECTIONS: There are times that I felt like LP was shaken. I felt like my whole world was crumbled to my feet. But there has never been a time, when I have literally been somewhere and feel it move with everyone else feeling it too. I remember being at LP and church made me speak boldly of God, but that was Friday nights and Sunday mornings. Sometimes I do not go out and just spread the word with every person I meet, but I try. Like with people I work with, it tends to come up a lot and also when I got my tattoo, we talked a lot about our church and he was impressed. I just hope that myself and others can remember that God is around us all the time and can be in any conversation. Speak boldly!
MY PRAYER: Dear Lord, give me the right words to say. Give me the anxiousness to scream your word out to the masses. Give me the pure heart and mind to represent your word. Give me the boldness to be a diamond in the rough. I pray this in your name, Amen.
August 2, 2008
I promise to update in a few hours on Acts 4 & 5!!! I had a long day yesterday getting my tattoo, here’s a photo!
July 31, 2008
READ: Acts 3
MY KEY VERSE: 8 He jumped to his feet and began to walk. Then he went with them into the temple courts, walking and jumping, and praising God.
MY REFLECTIONS: It was amazing enough for Peter to completely heal this crippled guy with the power of the Holy Spirit, but I think the reaction of the man himself blows my mind. I think that I forget, and so do many others, that we should be praising and thanking God for our lives, resources, and gifts we used every single day. I/we take too much for granted, but I’m sure we have our days that we are crippled in a way, and then the day came when we were healed with Jesus. I know that there have been times that God surprises me and blesses me that I jump around with joy, but there are also times that I let it slide right by and don’t even thank him. I want to praise your name today, tomorrow, and forever!
MY PRAYER: Dear Lord, I give You praise for everything I have and don’t have. I praise You for letting me read this power and discover how awesome you are! Please, let me remember how much you have blessed me for all the days of my life and that You are the only one for me! You are my saviour and will always be. I pray this in your name, Amen.
July 30, 2008
READ: Acts 2
MY KEY VERSE: 13 Some, however, made fun of them and said, “They have had too much wine.“
MY REFLECTIONS: I read this verse and was completely jealous. I want to be able to be in front of people like the disciples were and have them think we are so happy that we are drunk. Just like the verse in Ephesians 5, “Do not be drunk with wine, but be drunk with the Holy Spirit.” I know that there have been times at LP like this, but I know that at C.C. it should be the main goal! To be so enthralled with our God and the message and the worship that we just explode with charisma and love!!
MY PRAYER: Dear Lord, I praise You to give me the time, energy, strength, and will to find time and devotion to read your word. I pray that You will give me and all disciples/Christians on this earth the audacity and charisma for you. I pray that people can learn to be excited about church and their God! I pray that they see it’s okay to have fun at 9 on a Sunday morning without being drunk or whatever. I pray this in your name, Amen.
July 29, 2008
READ: Acts 1
MY KEY VERSE: 7 He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority.
MY REFLECTIONS: There are so many things I will never know and sometimes I am alright with that because I know God has the perfect time for me to do these things. But sometimes, I am freaked out!! I get so nervous and upset because I don’t know when something will happen, but glory to God that he has plans that are way bigger and better than I could ever expect. He did that for me when it came for me to choose college, and that when I waited for Him to answer me with my future, He through the Cinema Church right in my lap. So amazing.
MY PRAYER: Oh Lord, please let me always remember that your way is better than mine, and your time is for you to know and for me to experience. Let me trust in you that your plans for me will always be what is best for me now and later on and that you will guide me through everything. I pray this in your name, Amen.
July 22, 2008
I can’t believe how crazy the past few days have been. Everyday I’ve dreaded work, I’ve gone in and worked with the greatest people there and had a blast. I guess I’ll stay there for now.
Last night I went to the movies with April & Sarette, it was grand. We saw “Dark Knight”. I liked it, I didn’t love it, but I liked it. Poor Heath Ledger… that’s all I could think about. I hate Maggie Gyllenhaal, she’s stupid. Overall, the movie was okay. The majority of movies I’ve seen this summer have been mostly bad so it was quite refreshing.
Afterwords, we stood outside Destinta and chatted for an hour. I love those two girls and I love it even more that we are all UConn kids now! I am so visiting April on campus at least 3 times next year, I have to!
I’ve been kinda sad lately. I hate how I waste everyday working, coming home to angry parents, staying up ’til 3, then passing out, then waking up and doing it all over again. I want some fun. I want to go somewhere spontaneously and have everything work out alright. I’m getting my tattoo in 10 days. I’m going to see Coldplay in 11 days.
That’s all.
<3
July 17, 2008
I got my license back, it only took three hours.
I went to Newport recently. It was nice. I wish I had found that used book store. Walked around the rocky shores and the cobblestone streets. Had good conversations and was very proud of myself for knowing some of the ways around town. I wasn’t too proud when I got lost going home though, dreadful.
One of my friends pointed out that even though I was Christian, I was one of the kind that make sense. That actually live with my faith instead of yelling it at everybody. It made me feel good for once.
Last night while I was on the phone I had some truth spilled to me. I just don’t know how or what to do, but I’d like to change. I’d like to not hate myself. I’d like to feel better. I’d like to feel truly happy, not fake.
Went to the doctor’s today because of how sickly I’ve been. Basically, I need to constantly be eating/drinking tons of nutrients or else things will get worse. I want to feel better.
Well, first I need to heal. So let the healing begin.
<3
July 15, 2008
I lost my wallet. My wallet has my license, debit card, student ID, monies, everything. I tried looking everywhere. Now I have to get a new license, card, and I can’t drive until I get that done. I also discovered today that there is a really big dent in the front of my car. It looks like someone kicked it or threw something at my car, which really makes me mad. I didn’t deserve all this crap to happen at once, and on top of that my parents are enraged with me. I also feel really sick and want to sleep forever.
This sucks.
